some fine ass

Oh geeez. Yesterday I had a kind of horrible day in lab. Like there was no product (?). It’s really weird and confusing it just upsets me. I hope everything will work out in the end.
The evening was nice though. I went with a friend of mine to a parish house and she had to hold a presentation about psalms and music. It was really awkward for me because on one hand it’s my first time to join some religious christian meeting although I’m not christian and on the other hand the whole thing was in Spanish. So I had a hard time there in general. It was nice to see something like that because I never went church service or something related to it. It ended soon and we went to my home to have an artists’ evening. I really need more of those geeez.

Here is some sketch of a buff guy

Cue cards for sketching are the best.

Edit: It’s Halloween 2015 and at Starved Artists we did a collab! How lovely. My drawing next to the others seem really rushed haha. ;u;

dead column

So recently I began to make those little cue cards to learn all 20 amino acids. And they are just perfect for little sketches in the middle of lessons. I really like them! I can just stack my drawings to my other cue cards to transport them easily around and it’s just overall convenient.
Recently I did another column chromatography. I am really bad at this I guess. The products always turn out not to be pure. I hope they don’t remove too many points haha ;u;
I hate this thing. 
Today I embarrassed myself in front of the head of lab because I couldn’t quite answer an easy question. I had a blackout and in retrospective it was just plain dumb from me. Well it did happen and I guess it won’t happen again, ever.

I wish life would be slower at some times. Everything is moving so fast now and every day is really exhausting. Studying chemistry is not for everyone! Reall exhausting and I wouldn’t recommend it to anyone. I wonder if a girlfriend would do the trick? Then again: that alone can’t be it ~ My friends do think I try hard to hit with girls who are already in a relationship… sigh ~ I guess just talking with other girls  casually is a no-go then. The world is harsh place and I’m quite surprised that I still around here somehow haha.

her head is a little too big

Oh well haha. I am really lazy atm and didn’t colour that pic properly. Just some rushed cel shading. But I have an good excuse for that haha. Damn lab.

Some friends of mine are getting really depressed about their work in lab. One guy of them was working really hard on something for one week just to find out his efforts were in vain. He didn’t get any of his product…. I tried to comfort him by watching something nice with him in the evening. It was at least something. This week was an OK week in lab. I didn’t fail anything but I lost a little bit of time. I hope it’ll keep up like this. Here I’m trying to synthesize 3-(Pent-4-en-1-yl)cyclohex-2-enone.

Working with balloons in lab is a little bit of happy world inside of my heart.

On other news I went to an college party for the first time of my life. I never went to a club or disco or something similiar. I am not a person who listens to music very loud and my ears were destroyed that night. I had a little bit of fun though and I even received a kiss on my cheek. It was a friendly kiss on the cheek of course but it did fill my heart with love again ’cause I haven’t received that kind of love for 2-3 years now. I was really happy that moment haha.

Also I really would like to have a MEGA MILK t-shirt. For halloween or casual or wat. haha

today was a wasted day in lab

My assistant wasn’t there so I couldn’t start my reaction today…. Very unfortunate.

we can’t be, we won’t be

But it isn’t in the card for us ~

I did the sketch of a beautiful girl before. I still suck at it. Portraits are hard …

spooky times in lab

Drawn this for a collab at Starved Artists.

And put this up in the lab. Depressing times in lab. sigh ~ I even see some girls cry because of failing….

For some non-depressing news. Last Saturday was a really nice day. Went out to buy some presents for my brother’s birthday. It was just a nice day with no lab and university related stuff. Gone are the days ~

it’s almost hallo hallo time

Scary! Drawing and having time for myself is really rare in this busy world.

So I started to purify my product with a distillation method and the set up is insanely large:

But that’s just one fume cupboard. It’s linked to a so called “Schlenk line” in another fume cupboard.

It’s purpose is to work with stuff which is really sensitive to water and air. In this case, my product is not. But I need because of the vacuum pump, which is able to reach 1*10^-3 mbar. Other pumps in our labs doesn’t reach this kind pressure…

On other news some friend of mine synthesized NHS-Fluorescein. I think. (NSFW)

lab: tiresome as always

Today I had my first column chromatography. I did it once, but not alone. It’s alright but my product comes down very slow. Like very slow, and also very long. I have 120 fractions by my hand and it seems like it doesn’t end. It doesn’t mean I fail. It just means I’m kinda slow… I wanted to finish it today but things never work in your favor in the god damn lab.

Here is pic of my column chromatography. I’m trying to get 3-Ethoxycyclohex-2-enon.

Posting lab pics is kinda fun. The work behind these are filled with suffering and despair. At least they will be kept forever here in this blog.

Also talking about drawing. I have been drawing in my sketchbook for a while and I just can’t draw in the middle of a lesson in university. It just looks so bad that I should be drawing at home at a more friendly and peaceful environment. Also I did touch my graphic tablet for the first time after 2-3 weeks neglecting it. It feels kinda weird again haha, but while I was drawing I got used to it real fast. My good old graphic tablet.

suckubus

I’m sick atm and I wish to be well again.
Tomorrow is a long lab day… I have to drink more tea to boost myself!

blanca lewin

I tried my best. Recently I really enjoy drawing in my sketchbook with little free time. Here is a page of it:

Lab work is agonizing as always. The organisation is bad again and there are tons of people who share the same experiment with me. The problem is just the missing equipment… There are many people waiting, always waiting just to start the experiment. I wish I could draw more in lab but I don’t wanna taint my sketchbook with chemicals… haha. Here is a picture of my experiment… I have to synthesize Diisopropyl-2-bromethyl-phosphonate. I need it to synthesize DIVP.

Recently my mind is conflicted with the concept with love. I don’t know what is wrong or right. People of all kind have another view of love and here I am still wondering about it. A friend of mine calls me a “hopeless lover”. Is it right? Is it wrong?
I watched “Quartier lointain” and it really gives me a lot of thoughts about life. sigh~